Daily Prompt: Tempted

via Daily Prompt: Tempted

This is the first time I have ever done a daily prompt, so we’ll see how it goes. In my opinion, temptation is never a good thing. It seems that everything in this world that we are tempted by are bad things…drugs, sex, gambling, food.  I’m tempted every day to cheat on my diet, to eat things that aren’t low carb.  I’m not great at avoiding temptation either. I’m an act before you think type of person for the most part. I try to “live more in the moment” at this stage of my life, so any temptations are usually embraced, not avoided.  Am I tempted to do drugs?  No. I have never really been interested in trying hard drugs. I always thought that with my luck & addictive personality, I would either be hooked from the start or die of an overdose on my first try. I have ALWAYS been tempted by food.  That’s why I’m overweight. I could never say no to food.  It made me feel better at the time, it was there for me any time I needed/wanted it, it brought me some comfort & pretty much the thought of “f_ _k you to the world.”  If I was told that I really should watch what I eat, I would eat more just out of spite.  Now who did THAT help?? Certainly not ME!  I do “OK” eating low carb, but I’m tempted by something every day.  Over the Holidays, it was fudge, cookies & all of that other awesome Christmas food.:)  I wish I could say that I totally avoided the temptation, but I didn’t.  Yet I DID have some self control! Woo Hoo….go me!! 🙂 Sex…yes for awhile I was tempted by that on a regular basis.  After my divorce 7 years ago, I went a little crazy.  My self-esteem was at an all time low, I was waaayyyy overweight (about 50 lbs more than I am now), was hurt & pissed off when my ex left me for someone he met on-line. So if I guy paid attention to me at all, I was all over that.  Totally gave into the temptation.  Was it worth it?  Not really.  I have never really liked sex without some kind of connection.  At the time though, it was like “why not give in to the temptation, what’s it going to hurt?”  But I felt a bit slutty after, so no it wasn’t worth it & I should have fought harder against it.  NOW the temptation is gambling.  Hell temptation/addiction seem to go hand in hand where I’m concerned. I have made a promise to myself that I WILL kick this particular addiction this year & that scratch tickets, casinos, etc. will NOT tempt me. But as of right now, they still do & I hate it!  I feel that I need to send one of the kids in to a convenience store if we want something to drink, etc. because I know that if I go in there, I’m going to buy at scratch ticket.  The temptation is just too great for me. Always looking to win more money so there won’t be so much worry. But it doesn’t help & causes even more worry.  So yeah being tempted to do most anything is dangerous. 

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